a_wastedface

Black Coffee 20
Water Water Water 0
Green Machine 170
Vegan Burger 140
Energy Drink 10

TOTAL= 340


BUTTTTT i worked out for 30 minutes today
1. Ran a mile
2. Did Squats
2 hip abductor machines
and yeah one more thing i think but i can't remember
YAYYY
good day :)

Black Coffee 30
1/2 Granola Bar 80
Salad 120
Pear 150
Granola 200
Wheat Chips 100


TOTAL= 680

So I went a little over.
I am going to the Y tomorrow for 2 hours
weight training and cardio, will work it off

Green Bell Pepper 50
Hummus 70
Pear 150
coffee 20
Soy Flax Chips 100
50.6 oz water 0

total=390

12:20 am
to help me sleep
peppermint tea and half a granola bar
is that okay?

was with friends all day
only had black coffee, water, sugar free rockstar, 2 pieces of veggie sushi, a few fries and sips of a milkshake(because of friends telling me i wasn't eating)



i'm really exhausted though
and my friend kind of annoys me
she's a new friend but......maybe it's just cause i'm so tired
i mean i had fun all day
but this depression and anxiety is really taking a toll
i can't wait to start my new school and get meds from
my therapist

crying so much
and panic attacks such

granola
oatmeal
black licorice
banana strawberry smoothie
california roll
carrots and ranch
apples and caramel
tea
water



besides the tea and water...i just gagged reading that after typing it

self control is soo hard to re gain once you've let yourself do whatever

I WILL DO IT

if it tastes good it is trying to kill you

i want this i do i do i do
i will only fail if i stop trying

soup
nutella strawberry crepe
ugh



tomorrow running around 6 miles

coffee water tea
so i'm not bloated when i shopppppp on sunday and monday!
=]

So I was going to do a fast and I started out really well
I only drank water and a cup of coffee black




Then came 6 o clock and we had this ceremony for my dad
and a reception thing after with a few close friends
and I had 10 thin cracker 8 pieces of tuna and cucumber sushi
and some grapes
NOT TERRIBLE
considering I've been eating horribly
but still
it's just hard with so many ppl around watching you

Today I am starting a fast.
I'm not running today though, because I've been running every day
and I need to learn self control first.
Otherwise, I will run and then be starving and eat.
Anyway, I know I can do this. I used to do it all the time.
Whew. Good luck to everyone else!
Hope your summer goals are being reached.

The last 5 months of my life have been hell.
I have gained about 10 pounds.
I fluctuate from 115 to 120.
I look gross, and school is starting.
What happened to 103 to 108?
Part of it is, my dad died in June and I ate out of depression this whole summer.



BUT NO MORE
I am back and am ready for a new start!
15 pounds in 40 days

Posting every day will be my new way!

Ooops. I forgot to post my information.

Height: 5'6
CW: 108
GW: 95-100
HW: 110